alec is at it again...

http://www.tmz.com/2007/04/19/alec-baldwins-threatening-message-to-daughter/

well, if you have not heard, our fav actor-turned-politician has added yet another occupation to his hefty list of credentials: parenting to the max. this of course is not the first entry in this blog regarding mr. baldwin, for his actions have caused him to be the topic of conversation here several times. alec is an ass. plain and simple. i especially love this little tidbit:

UPDATE: Alec Baldwin's spokesperson released the following statement to the TV show "EXTRA": "In the best interest of the child, Alec will do what the mother is pathologically incapable of doing ... keeping his mouth shut and obeying the court order. The mother and her lawyer leaked this sealed material in violation of a court order. Although Alec acknowledges that he should have used different language in parenting his child, everyone who knows him privately knows what he has been put through for the past six years."

so alec is sorry that his wife leaked the tape; he is not sorry about what he said. parents are supposed to protect their children, not cause them to fear. alec always has come across as that shady guy who beats his kids, and his most recent actions only validate those perceptions. the only redeeming thing about all of this is that his credibility as a human being has been flushed down the toilet, making even more of an ass out of him. cheers alec! perhaps dr. phil can cure you of your anger disorder. you are a sad, sad little man.

the winds of change and chance are once again upon me.
i raised my sails only to catch the strong and immediate current.
now, hundreds of miles from where i set off,
i am humbly approaching unfamiliar territory.
with great caution and angst i draw near to new ground.
though i fear no evil, as i have felt its bashing curse before.
as the tide rises, so does the anxiety within, expectedly.
but the anchor to my soul holds fast, though some will not see it.

you have changed.
what you meant to me has shifted.
in fact, you are gone, and i don't expect you to return.
but now you have arrived, and swept me up.
you have captured my attention, which is hard for anyone to do.
and all i think about now is how i want to give to you.
to share with you. to help you. to hold you.
i have come to expect the unexpected, but this time it does not hurt.
how much life can change in a simple string of (extra) ordinary days.

i hate the hate crimes bill. so there.

time is passing by so quickly, and i fear that i will not reach my goals. what i do know is that i will try, anyway, to accomplish the things which are important to me--regardless of whether or not these things are practical; after all, practicality was never my cup of tea. in two days, i have completed several tasks which were formerly before me: i cooked broccoli in a sesame seed, olive oil, garlic and red chili flake saute, only half steaming nature's protein laced green. additionally, i prepared a chili recipe, which was constructed by my sister in law--i even prepared it the way she did, venturing away from the original directions a bit, because i liked it so much when we visited in january. besides cooking, i cleaned a bit, took out the trash, decided to keep our new chairs, played the piano, and completed my first modeling shoot. it has been an eventful twenty-four hours. here's to the next...

it has truly been a whirlwind of a week
margaritas, manicures, martinis, and a moscow mule
my life has been turned upside down
i was surfing on the most outrageous wave
when the undertow sucked me into disarray
out of my mind, out of my body, back together again

the coming days will produce even more confusion, delusion
yet clarity is slowly seeping into mind's abyss
tears, laughter, joy, sorrow, love and heartache are in store
if only i could rope the wind, rob a bank, and reach the stars
all at the same time so that i might feel in control
but for now, the current will continue to push and pull me about

i am definitely taking the road less traveled. say what you will, i do things in my own unique way and i do not see that changing any time soon. this presents me with several obvious problems. first, the routes i have chosen on this journey will limit the places i am able to go. because of these limitations, the company i keep will also change--this is the predicament which bothers me the most. finally, my actions in these next key moves will determine permanently the attitude with which people will perceive me. am i ready for a change? this change? i cannot answer that question. and i have been advised not to share my answer with anyone, once i arrive at a decision. but that i would simply act accordingly will be sufficient. new times. new days ahead. new people. old people. young people. what will it be...

humanity of late has proven to be a society of half truths and utter deception. people say they are going to do one thing, yet they do another. i am guilty of this. for months now i have expressed my distaste for those who alter the truth and for those who make up excuses for their irresponsibility in keeping appointments, fellowshipping with friends and fulfilling voluntary committal engagements. it was this night that i realized that i am far from perfect and hat if i am not careful i will end up just the same as the people who have offended before me. i will make it a point to not turn out like flaky people i know. i will .

i enter. i pause. i see you sitting there.
with your eyes focused intently upon your subjects.
i pass by. i attend to other business. you notice. i glance.
for a moment we understand each other. we empathize.

my place is set. i must return. your company awaits.
i too have company, yet this night feels like a solo flight.
with wings i fly high into the realm of what might have been.
you are not there, however, as our paths crossed only for a moment.

i write tonight as a friend is in pain
he suffers an ailment of years past
morphine, antibiotics, and the like run through him
i hurt for him, he does not deserve this, not him
i hope he heals quickly, i hope the news will be good
a good soul, a happy spirit, upon him be peaceful rest